stuck

i don't know what to do anymore... :(

i'll go tell her

im gonna tell her that... :D

80% lie

when she says she doesn't love you anymore, she's 80% lying.. the other 20% goes to her being doubtful with her feelings... depends on the situation mostly

a relationship that goes from 3 months to a year/s is practically building all the feelings for each other right? so why am i talking about this even i had always experience a failed relationships in the past... silly me.

valentines

so, the day for the heart February 14, i think its ok to greet her :) ya i did greet her.. waiting for a reply but i'm not expecting or expecting a good reply thu'

later i will be playing with CPO at SM City Northwing 3PM until 4PM, then i need to rush for 6PM pickup at SM Consolacion for another gig a Danao City, MOJO Bestro Cafe... no date just purely music business :D

happy valentines day to all and i'll leave you with this song from ed sheeran ;)

wake up!

like two weeks ago i was in a different world or i went back in that world before and experience again the little joy and happiness it makes. i just need to be certain about what happened before making a conclusion...

missing you

i miss your simple simple smile... your long black wavy hair and those baby hair on your forehead... your smell...

i miss the way i hug you and wrap my arms around you... i miss everything..

fair and unfair chance

a guy friend of mine (a close friend so i know what he is doing) caught cheating with another girl by her girlfriend, but then they are still together (maybe they have a fight about it and everything and my friend ask for forgiveness and blah blah blah so she forgives him)... but i think other girl could have break up with a guy like that... the thing that really bothered me is WHAT ABOUT ME?

can i have another chance? i didn't even cheat :( not fair

i was only from my stupid mouth!!

are you?

Does she even think of me?

chance

If only she could give me another chance... its never too late for me but for her I think...

I'm feeling hurt everytime I think about what I did... not thinking that it would come to this... i always think she was kidding.

I couldn't insist, i'm afraid that it will only result to even more heartache...

what i've done

Thinking over again, all those happy memories.. i can't even..

I keep on thinking that i'm not the lucky guy, not at all... not even close...

I wanted to cry, the same feeling 3 years ago... but i cant...

I thought i was strong... i was not

I fucking miss you!!

dreams

i dreamt about her, i was happy,.. but when i wake up i couldn't even remember what it was... but i sure i was happy, the memories...

maybe this is it for me, i'm old... regrets will be a thing of a past in life...

i'm not trying to be successful, i just want to be happy of what i have...

keeping it

i would think of her every single day... maybe i already accepted it or not but deep inside me is crying.

when we are separated and hurt, we tell ourselves to stop caring we make ourselves strong that we forget to fix the problem first... so far, we left ourselves hanging or is it i'm the only one.

i was afraid to ask her if she already move on, because she already told me that it was over...

my workout routine

i have to post this workout videos so i don't need to find it again on youtube

my January schedules

Sinulog 2015 is here! Wohoooo~

January 10 Sunday 6:30PM Ms. Cebu Rehearsal
January 12 Monday 5:00PM Ms. Cebu Rehearsal
January 13 Tuesday 5:00PM Ms. Cebu Rehearsal
January 14 Wednesday 3:00PM Ms. Cebu

Violin Lessons
Sunday 11-12AM & 1-2PM
              2:30PM onwards
Monday 3-4PM
Friday 4-5PM

love hurts

sad day it is... she really is serious about not accepting me back to her life, and she just wanna be friends. she doesn't even want to see me -_- that's even more painful!~ yes she is SERIOUS alright... and me, want to go easy on the moves and everything still got rejected..

mom already got her medical check up for what she's feeling for 2 days, mom can't barely walk because of the pain in her hips and legs. :/

overall, a tiring day, another heartache night...

let's start it off

january 2015, this blog will be my new self blog because i want to change myself for good and help me focus on myself and to serve it as an outlet... this is because i have been on so many failed relationships and i can't see myself from wanting to save it or let it go... i've been hurt before and the same thing happens again... so what's wrong? or what went wrong? i'm just confused, i don't want to say a word because i'm afraid of being rejected twice... i've told myself, "is she testing me?" enough with the broken love story... so i do now is working out, losing weight and belly fats... also help me forget the feeling... i'm back at teaching violin :) i still do play dota :D and Clash of Clans (she plays it and she is better than me.. lol)